Changes

The last year has brought some incredible changes in the direction that my life is heading. Obviously, the biggest would be our decision to become full time missionaries. I do find it rather amusing when people, including Christian's, give us the "are you crazy" look. Especially when we tell them that we have to raise our own living expenses...from people! "Aren't you scared..don't you worry that you won't have money to pay the bills," many ask? Of course, in this day and age most missionaries aren't struggling so much that they worry about basic necessities, but it certainly comes with difficulties. My answer is simple. As I felt God pressing the issue on me more and more, I felt more scarred NOT to do it. I looked toward my life 20 years down the road and was terrified of looking back with regret - regret of not having giving EVERYTHING I could to serve God. Yeah, I go to Church every week, tithe, attend multiple Bible studies, serve in various ministries...but I had to ask myself was I giving everything. The answer was a big whopping "NO". Of course, becoming a missionary won't mean that I'm doing that either. But is the next step in my journey to being willing to sacrifice all that I own, all that I love, to submit to God's command to make Him Lord of my life. I'm not there yet and have a long way to go...but I pray that I'm headed in the right direction.