This isn't fun anymore

Well, I'm not sure if it was ever FUN, but it certainly isn't now. The wait is getting HARD. I feel very blessed that it hasn't been too bad up until now. Before we got our referral I really thought that once we got it the wait to bring her home would be horrible. But I guess I had really been prepared for the wait. Each step went along pretty much as planned...even if a couple of things took longer than they should. I cried when our agency told us it wouldn't be until February...but it didn't make the waiting at that time any harder. We still had a couple more steps and I guess I still held out hope it would be in January. If we hadn't had the holidays to distract me, I think the hard part would have started even sooner - so I'm thankful for that. But today, on Sora's 9 month birthday, it's definitely the worst so far. When we got her referral in September I thought for sure we'd have her here for this day. Orin prays every night that she is safe and comes home soon. We have the house all set up - high chair, crib, clothes, etc. - all ready. I've packed some stuff for Korea. I even bought a little travel dictionary today. I was really hoping for a call last week. I don't know why I'm having such a hard time getting my heart to just settle on the fact that it's still at least 2 or 3 more weeks away. But I need to or they are going to be pretty miserable. I know she will come home exactly when God wants her to - and it will be the perfect timing. And that is comforting. But Lord, please give me patience.

Happy 9 months Sora! Hope we're with you to celebrate 10!