I changed my mind

I think I will blog. I didn't think I would be able to. But suddenly, today, I'm feeling myself again. I got just what I needed - my first day alone with three kids! Damien returned to work. My mom left. I knew I just needed to get back to "normal" life. It felt so good. We miss my mom, of course, but it was time. We couldn't have done it without her.

I think I was a little thrown off by how hard the last two weeks were. So many people talk about how difficult it was for them after having their first baby. Or second, third, fourth... I never could relate. I figured this would be the same. Obviously, God wanted me to learn a lesson. I know I often rely on myself too much. I definitely prayed more in the last two weeks than ever before. God is so faithful.

Sora had a great day. This was definitely the most I've been able to spend doing things while she played. Orin was at school so I took Micaiah to Mainly Music. It is always a special time for us each Monday so I was somewhat concerned about how he would be with Sora there. Normally I hold him much of the time but since I had to hold Sora I couldn't. He did great. I don't think he enjoyed it as much though. He'll get used to it. Sora didn't really enjoy it either I think. She was ready for her nap. But she still did well. During the play time she walked around. She worries me a little because she is pretty friendly. She'll just walk up to people and ask them to hold her. We really have to be careful about "Mommy shopping." It's when adopted children sort of keep an eye out for whoever their new mommy might be. It's a coping mechanism where they have lost one (or more) mom before and want to be ready for a new mom. They often then will begin to reject their adopted mom. This is why we don't let strangers hold Sora. Anyway, the few times someone else has picked her up when she's prompted them to, she has wanted to come back to me right away. But still, I want to be careful. When we got home she took a great nap. Micaiah and I played games and puzzles the rest of the morning. Daddy came home for lunch which is always so nice. While Micaiah and Sora napped, Orin and I made chocolate mousse (yum) and worked on his workbooks. It was nice. We had breakfast for dinner and Sora had her first pancakes! She ate quite a bit.

Anyway, I might not be putting up tons of pictures, but I at least want to keep a record on how life is going.